Wow...so...I don't have, or have never been diagnosed, at least, with BPD, but...this video really speaks to me, there's a lot of this that I can relate to in a major way.
He does explain that there are indeed ways to overcome things through building up a sense of self-worth. I know how hard that is, absolutely I do, but it does make sense that this is how to break the cycle. So don't give up, there is a way to get beyond this! You are a great person, and it is always worth trying to overcome the things your brain wants to do to bring you back down!
I understand, I really do. Like we've talked about before, we share a lot of similarities, loneliness and depression being key among them, but don't give up hope! Keep working with your therapists, keep trying to expand on your work with the blog, and keep pushing forward. You have a lot to offer and you're a great person. Do you think there's someone out there for me? If you think there is, then you know there is for you, as well, you just haven't met that person yet! All is not lost, this is just another down patch. We will get through it and you will find that you have so much to offer!
My Mom always said "There's a cover for every pot" meaning somewhere out there is a perfect match for everyone. When you least expect it, love finds you. You don't have to try and force it or despair if you haven't found it yet. I learned the first person you need to love is yourself. Work on making yourself comfortable in your own skin and you will be ready to partner with your soulmate. Let that be an incentive to striving for wholeness.