Thanks. I am doing my best. My projects give me joy and distraction. But I have bitten off more then I can chew.
Damn I am 41 now and only one relationship that lasted a few years. I dont think I have lots left in me.
Take your time, it doesn't matter if your projects are up and running tomorrow or six months from now, they should always be in your own time frame. If there's something that's a bit of a stumbling block, take a break from it, focus on something else, and come back to it with a fresh perspective. You'll get there!
I understand, totally. 41 isn't bad, but I'm in the same boat relationship wise, I have such a hard time opening up and connecting with people that relationships are extremely difficult for me. I've mentioned the woman that's currently living in the house with me, and how attracted I am to her, but I just can't bring myself to talk to her about any of it because I get anxiety and close myself down. I'd give anything to be with her, but I also don't want to ruin our friendship because of selfish needs and my own inability to open up properly and talk to her. It's torturous seeing her every day and knowing that, even though she's right there, she's a million miles away at the same time. I'm equally worried that, if anything ever did happen there, she'd leave me immediately because I'm a horrible person and not emotive enough for a relationship. So believe me, I understand how hard it is to want that connection, that partnership and not have it. I do believe it will happen for both of us, truly, it just has to be the right person! It will happen, though!